all4theduke

Its been a while but hey, times do take that toll on a person and you cant seem to keep up with anything anymore. Basically after finishing my first real relationship of three months my life got hectic, i started relationship two, which lasted four days and whom the guy friend who is a very good guy friend is always still calling me. But other than that, ex number one wouldnt leave me alone and then coupled with a friend of his who made my life hell for a period of time, it took quite a while to reach the status i am at now and done with all that mess. Currently my troubles seem to be worrying about my general being and how i am going to keep up with living expenses month to month and finding a job in this day and age. Its getting way overwhelming that im running near broke and i have to worry about all these expenses that just keep seeming to come at me. I feel even being as thrifty as my mother taught me to be its just not enough. But as always, it will be figured out somehow, i am not sure how yet, but i will. On top of this worry, i have recently been talking to a guy here at school more and whom told me i was his type and then proceeded to kiss me randomly the first time we hung out. Whats bad about this, is that since then, he acts like always and im left at a loss for what the heck is going on. why cant life and relationships be more clear cut, i mean if u like someone let them know your intentions right off so then they can either say yes that is okay with me and or say no thank you and you both move on? i mean i really hate the whole guessing games with guys. oh well, my main concern has to be school and finding a job now so ill let him do whatever he thinks he needs to do and not worry about it anymore, because that can drive a girl nuts and just go on like i have unless he wants to make something out of it. ill cross that bridge when i come to it, should i ever.